COVERT COMPOSITIONS

Day 1. Sounds new…fresh…exciting.

Or does it?

I can’t keep track anymore of how many Day 1’s I have had over the years. Prior to reaching my highest weight, I had dieted and tried various programs with varying levels of success. Over the years, I’ve had numerous mis-starts, false-starts and non-starts. Far more than successful starts that resulted in long-term weightloss.

By 2011, I reached a weight that placed me in the morbidly obese category and decided it was time to lose the weight. I don’t remember the exact details of my very first Day 1. What I do remember, however, is the excitement and hope that I felt. This carried me through the initial stages of unpleasantness typical of major lifestyle changes.

I successfully continued this part of my weightloss journey through 2013, losing a total of 95 pounds with only 60 left to lose. Without going into detail in this particular post, I ended up off-track after long-term and progressive weightloss.

From that point on, I have had trouble restarting. Many times I have intended or attempted to get back on track without success. I have also had experiences where I seriously started and then stopped shortly after.

In 2016, I had a mis-start when I tried Isagenix and it didn’t work for me. I was hungry all the time and not losing any weight. I am one of the few who can tout that. However, I eventually learned of food sensitivities and allergies and am unable to use any of their products.

In 2018, I found a naturopath and completed an elimination diet for Candida. It was the first time in a long time that I had marked success in losing weight. Not only did I lose weight, I was slimming down. I lost weight even when I did not exercise.

I followed this diet for 6 months and then got off track again. Within the first 6 months of this year, I have gained back all the weight I had lost last year. I feel that I have been headed down a slippery slope and have no desire to gain any more weight back. That is when I set a date and announced it here on my blog to restart my weightloss journey, yet again.

I worked hard to prepare to kick-off this weightloss challenge successfully. After all these years, I am a pro. I know exactly what to do…choosing my healthy eating plan, movement plan, etc.

Day 1 came. No hip-hooray. No fuss. Not one bit of excitement. Only apprehension. I thought to myself, “Here we go again.” I wondered if this time would be for real. How would this time turn out? What would it take to make these last 60 pounds finally become a reality? I have had the same 60 pounds to lose for 6 years now. I often feel discouraged that I can’t get my act together and keep it together.

Can you can relate to the struggles of major and long-term weightloss? Have you felt discouragement and self-doubt as well? Please let me know. Let’s support each other through the process. We are only better together.

“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.”

― J.P. Morgan